Different Language
Have you ever felt like you are talking a language that no one understands?
That's exactly what I am feeling...and actually what I have been feeling since sometime ago. My language only makes sense to me. It's getting harder to live among people who speak a different language that doesn't make sense to you.
I ran into one or two who speak my language and I decided to stuck with them as long as I can because it makes me feel safe to be with people who can understand. It's good to feel that you are not insane as people think because you are just different.
At some moments, I just wish I can surrender and learn their language or just adapt to it regardless of how meaningful it is to me. I feel so bad then. It's just like cutting your wrist because you cannot convince people that you are using your hand for many jobs and cannot get rid of it! You then look at the mirror and you don't recognize yourself without that part of you.
I wonder if it became so hard for me to just get along. Is it that hard even with those you love?!
I think it's not only that people are not accepting me the way I am, I cannot accept them the way they are too. I believe it's not an easy job but I will try. That's how I want to be. That's what I believe in. People are free to be themselves.Even if we disagree with them, we need to accept them the way they are...not asking for any change even if we hope for it. That's when the true love is born.
That's exactly what I am feeling...and actually what I have been feeling since sometime ago. My language only makes sense to me. It's getting harder to live among people who speak a different language that doesn't make sense to you.
I ran into one or two who speak my language and I decided to stuck with them as long as I can because it makes me feel safe to be with people who can understand. It's good to feel that you are not insane as people think because you are just different.
At some moments, I just wish I can surrender and learn their language or just adapt to it regardless of how meaningful it is to me. I feel so bad then. It's just like cutting your wrist because you cannot convince people that you are using your hand for many jobs and cannot get rid of it! You then look at the mirror and you don't recognize yourself without that part of you.
I wonder if it became so hard for me to just get along. Is it that hard even with those you love?!
I think it's not only that people are not accepting me the way I am, I cannot accept them the way they are too. I believe it's not an easy job but I will try. That's how I want to be. That's what I believe in. People are free to be themselves.Even if we disagree with them, we need to accept them the way they are...not asking for any change even if we hope for it. That's when the true love is born.
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