Empty Cup

Sitting there by my side in the cafe, he smiled at me then poured some coffee in my cup. I looked into the cup...it's empty!
He then resumed talking. I never memorized any of the words he usually says. He always victimizes himself by talking about circumstances...as if he always has no choice. He is always driven by mysterious force! He kept talking but no words actually reached my ears...I could see them flying around.
I shivered. I looked at the cafe glass door...it's very sunny outside!
I said "It's very cold here"...but he didn't pay attention. He was busy talking.
I had another look at the glass door, I saw children playing. I smiled. I thought I may excuse him to go to the bathroom then sneak out for some fresh air and warm sunlight. I was about to stand when surprisingly I couldn't move my leg! Panicky, I looked down to find that my leg is tied to the chair with chains!!
I could feel the panic popping out of my look, scudding across the place. However, everything seems normal. He is still talking. In the cafe, each is peacefully doing something.
I was about to grab his attention to the chains, since he didn't notice all the panic in my look,  but my voice never left my throat out! I couldn't hear me.
I felt helpless...defeated. Am I dreaming? When will I wake up?
He poured some coffee again in my cup. I looked into the cup with eyes full of tears. It's still empty!
Time is an old man leaning on a stick.
He finished his cup of coffee... smiled at me, kissed my hand, and left.
While seeing him opening the glass door to leave, sun shine fell through the door inside the place. I felt warm.
I stood up and walked towards sun shine.

Comments

  1. Abdou Taraphi - عبده طرابيه26/4/15 09:45

    At the first few lines, I saw myself lying between the smooth letters. Then I start to dance on your rhythm by moving from a word to another, your words made be recall two songs at the front of my eyes.
    My heartbeat start playing ♫ Words ♫ by Magda El Rome, then ♫ Little lies ♫ tell me lies, tell me sweet little lies by Fleetwood Mac
    A wise man once said, action speaks louder than words. ^_^ Especially men words with their snaky sweet talk.
    It's always a good choice to pick a goal for your own self, a goal that you select and do your best to reach without bothering yourself waiting a dumb head Mr. Excuses to ruin your life with a none-stop selfish drama stories.
    No-one can chain "dominate" another, unless he or she allow him to do so. We're all free by birth, by nature, by will being. So, don't ever let anyone take your freedom or control it.
    I apologize for the noisy and long comment, keep your write up.

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  2. Salma27/4/15 01:58

    This is just beautifully written! I loved everything about it! :)

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  3. Anonymous27/4/15 07:14

    Amazing... I can Relate

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  4. Unknown5/5/15 03:41

    I love it :)

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